Something I've been wanting to get out
There's something about loneliness that I just can't seem to accept. It's that even though you're with yourself, you're not with yourself. In the sense, you're always in the thought of why would someone leave you or treat you bad which makes you leave eventually. You're hurt and crying over it again and again. Four months have passed and I haven't been able to move on from the recent experience or trauma, whatever you wanna call it. It wasn't her fault, it wasn't mine. It was just the timing that wasn't fine. A lot has changed since then, I've become stronger...I no longer let people in my life as easy as it used to be, I'm still a sweetheart, but probably not for everyone. Being sweet, nice, kindly comes with a lot of disappointment and frustration which then leads to vague sadness which you can't define. Last year, I got close to this girl, for those of you who know me, you'd know who...and things were going smooth until sh...